Thanks so much for reading!
It has to do with the 2nd law of thermodynamics…(entropy) – everything will tend to fall apart unless energy is put into the system, especially life. We are born helpless, and by definition we have to work to hold it together, and in that process, there is so much opportunity for taking the easy way out by lying and stealing and hurting. That we all tend to do whatever it takes to survive, if left to the worst parts of us, but we all know something is wrong with that. That we have to be good men and women, that we all seek that somehow. We seek order and peace, and we admire those people who provide it – people that somehow hold a piece of the world together – law men, human law men. And in the end, if you can just do that in your own little way, you win the battle. Something like that is what I was getting at… sometimes I just write what I feel and I forget that it has to make sense to others. Haha. I appreciate you for asking!

thanks! I'll keep working on it so it makes more sense.

Thanks for reading and replying. I hope my explanation is useful. I would also add this....I was contemplating how it is that life seems so difficult and filled with suffering...its like we are only born to suffer - to fight to survive, which seems true. but why? Maybe it is to see: how heroic human behavior the only solution to that -- how you can be, if you decide, to be the one who fights against suffering, in any little way that is available to you. That this battle is eternal, no matter the time or place in history.