My days of wanton longing,
chasing things I thought I wanted
left me so alone
in a sea of familiar faces.

I nailed my emotions
to a thousand connections
both false and true.
I lost my heart and my mind
trying to discern the two

It kept me running, breathless;
away from my own darkness,
chased by my own shadow
who grew immense and imposing
gorging itself on a feast of my fears

Slowly, all I thought I wanted
became a ghostly vapor;
or perhaps I was the specter?
With nothing left to run to
I turn my eyes inside and see the beast;
a shadowy reflection in a fun house mirror

We study each other for a moment
that turns into an eternity;
after which,
some understanding has been reached.
We step into each other’s space
becoming super human.

Now my splintered self combines.
I am the darkness and the light.
Love and connection seek me out.
Now I am equipped to receive them.
Patient and watchful for their call.